psalm 27.

I am so excited I could burst. I go to Salerno in a little over two months, and 99.9% of me just wants to go to sleep tonight, skip the next two months, and wake up in Italy. I don't know what to expect, I don't know anyone who is going, I don't know how I am going to evangelize to Italian students who are all going to be way smarter than I am, but that's what I need. I need to get out of this little bubble, always hanging out with the same people, (there's nothing wrong with that, but when you have one group of friends and you are called to be reaching out to the lost, it's a problem.) always doing the same things, always stuck in a routine. I feel like my life right now is just really quite boring. The idea of going into completed uncharted territory (figuratively) is appealing and I cannot wait to see what God is going to do with this Summer. It is also going to test my trust in the Lord. Right now it is being tested financially. And when May 16 rolls around, it will test it even more, pushing the boundaries of my little bubble of safety and comfort. I will be forced to make all new friends and put myself out there and reach people for Christ. I have never done anything like this, and I know my life is going to change because of it. I pray that God will use me and that when I am afraid, and even when I am not, I will fall back on Him, knowing He will strengthen me and humble me. I am itching to get out of here, but right now I need to focus on trusting God with this money.

Lord, please help me get through the next two months. Help me not to be impatient, but excited and hopeful. God, prepare my heart for the people I am going to meet, and prepare theirs for me. Break it and give me a burden for the lost. Right now, help me trust in You for this money. I have never had that much money in my life at one time, so the thought of raising all of it in two months is terrifying. But Lord, You said NOTHING is impossible for You. Help me not to ever forget that.

One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple. Psalm 27:4

My heart says of you, "Seek his face!" Your face, LORD, I will seek. Psalm 27:8

Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD. Psalm 27:14