death to self=LIFE.

Sometimes I get in these weird moods where I am just disgusted with all of this. The world and its materialistic view of everything. Our false gods. Looking cool. Being so stinking comfortable and complacent. Politics (from both sides). Our cushy little college lives, sitting at the library on our laptops and iPhones, drinking $4 coffees that are paid for with our parents' money, whining about how we have so much to do. Facebook, Formspring, stupid websites that feed our vanity. Everything I live for that is not God. I get so sick of always living for myself. Sometimes it makes me want to ditch everything and go live on the streets or something. I would not be productive whatsoever in doing that, but you get my point.

It just kind of puts things in perspective for me. What the hell am I doing? I am not living everyday as an example of what the Almighty God can do in a persons life. I am not reaching out to the lost souls, but instead turning my nose up at them with my 'holier than thou' attitude. What is the point of my existence if I am not breathing every single breath for the Lord? I could achieve the 'American Dream' with a wonderful husband, a few kids, a good living. I could make a name for myself so that when I die, people will remember me. I could spend the next 60-70 years on this earth living the perfect life I always dreamed of, but what would it matter? Honestly, what good am I doing for God's kingdom by chasing after this dream? None. Nothing on this whole planet matters more than this...

"Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?" Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'^a]"> This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments." Matthew 22:36-40

"If we are not willing to wake up in the morning and die to ourselves, perhaps we should ask ourselves whether or not we are really following Jesus." Blue Like Jazz

This life is meaningless if I am not laying down my life every single day in service to Jesus who sacrificed everything for me.